I began writing these posts November 2012. They share the difficult journey we traveled when we wanted to have a baby.
Anthony and I have had many, many conversations about the right time to begin trying to have a baby. When we sat across from each other at a Mexican restaurant near our house, we once again chatted about the “when.” It was a Sunday, October 23, 2011, to be exact. He asked me, “How do you think we’ll know when the right time is?” My response was – “Maybe like we do for any other important thing; pray and ask God. We could even fast” I said.
That afternoon, we went to church. During our time of worship, I sat with a friend’s 5 year old little boy. He was restless, so I gave him a notebook to draw in. He tapped me on the leg and showed me a picture he drew. I asked him what it was. He said it was Anthony, me, and our baby. Surprised, I asked if it was a boy or girl. He said "I didn’t know, its a baby!"
Then our pastor began talking about the time when Jesus called His disciples. Jesus invited them to follow while at the peaks of their careers, they seemingly had better things to do. I clearly felt God say to me “now is the time.” What? I thought, I’m at the peak of my career! Anthony is at the peak of his career.” The main theme of the message was to stop procrastinating and get on with the things youve been trying to put off.
When we got in the car to leave, I asked Anthony what he thought about the message. He told me he felt God say that now was the time to begin trying for a family. “Really” I asked? “When did you hear that?” It was when our pastor was talking about the disciples. Un-be-lievable. I don't think i can express my surprise I felt at that moment.
I didn’t think I would hear so clearly from God in regards to starting our family. That was almost 9 months after my lunch with Jackie and we still weren’t pregnant.